21 weeks today

So Erik and I went and did the 3d/4d ultrasound to confirm that it is indeed a girl. (I think he was hoping maybe the first ultrasound tech was wrong! LOL!). We were lucky as the lady is giving us TWO ultrasounds for the price of one and as it turns out, her hubby is a Vallejo Firefighter and him and Erik know each other and even go dirt bike riding together! What a small world!! So we did the first ultrasound on Saturday and it was SO surreal! Seeing the baby moving around - with all 5 fingers and toes and even yawning was so wonderful! I could sit there all day long and watch it!

Since she is still young - she appears more distorted in the pictures as there is more fluid to go through to get her image. At one point we thought maybe we had a deformed baby but the tech reassured us that it was just that she was so small still and there is more fluid and such to travel through to get her picture!

It definitely is a girl - and no, no names as of yet! I think we'll get some baby name books to help us decide! We did have one name picked out but as soon as it was confirmed it was a girl...it makes you second guess yourself! So we'll see what we come up with!

During part of the video we have - our cute little daughter looked like she was flipping us off! LOL! Erik said "that must be my daughter!" It was funny!

She is healthy in all regards. All her tests came back wonderfully and as of today, she supposedly weighs one pound! I have gained 13 already! GASP!

Once we got home - Erik went to go study and I watched our DVD of the ultrasound. They had it set to all this mushy baby music and I found myself bawling through the whole thing! I have never felt a love like that before in my life and it was totally surreal! I guess that's the love they talk about between parent and child!

So I don't have much else to write for today! The picture you see is of the 3d/4d ultrasound. You can see her eyes and her nose (and she has my nose!) and she is yawning. Off to the right is her arm and hand that was moving and on the left - partly covering her face is another arm that was moving at the time the picture was taken! I still can't believe I am going to be a mom!!!!!

THE RESULTS ARE IN!!!!

We went for the ultrasound today. Got there right on time but of course had to wait a while. The whole procedure took an hour - and that is something I didn't expect. I also didn't expect them NOT to tell us if the baby was healthy or not. But the tech said she couldn't tell us that - only the doctor. I couldn't see the screen too well but Erik could and Erik said from what he could see - it all looked healthy!

Not quite sure how to feel about finding out the sex. I wanted a girl, Erik wanted a boy. But both of us didn't care either way. In fact, I think I flip flopped every day - one day I wanted a girl and then one day a boy! I guess I just expected some HUGE joy to come over me when we found out- and it didn't. I don't know if it's because THAT part is over and it was kind of fun guessing and having people guess. Now it seems more final - if that makes any sense. Now I have to plan to raise a little girl - and that is kinda scary to know I have to do that for the next 18 years and then some! I wonder if anyone ever feels this way? I was talking to my friend Beth and she was very excited to find out what she was having - but also a little saddened all the guessing was over with too. She said it's normal - but both of us are weirdos so who knows what normal is! LMAO! I think maybe next time...I don't want to find out though!

Anyways - that's my blog for today! I will probably write more on Friday when we find out how healthy the baby is! But for now...I need to relax as this has been an emotional day for me (not just baby stuff...) so that's what I am off to do! :)

My first blog - 20 weeks, 2 days

So I have never really blogged before so this is kinda crazy for me! Not sure what I am suppose to say, but I will just write whatever comes to mind I guess!

Tomorrow we go for our big ultrasound. I am scared to death! I have been guilty of reading things online which probably aren't the healthiest for me to read, but at the same time, I think I should be prepared for all possibilities - good and bad - since I have never been through this before! I have read about women who were 18 weeks pregnant and one that was 19 weeks, 2 days pregnant who went in for their big ultrasound, only to find that there was no heartbeat and the baby had died. I CANNOT imagine how horrible of a thing that must be to go through. I also can't help but worry if that may happen to me. I think I feel the bean moving but have even been questioning myself if that is what it is. I have obviously never been through this before so what if I am thinking that is what I am feeling and it turns out it is just gas?

I am praying for a positive ultrasound in all aspects. Kaiser informed us that they no longer tell you the sex of the baby - UNLESS you get a NICE technician. For the life of me I can't understand why on earth they wouldn't tell someone but they say it's because they can be wrong. Well of course they can be wrong - those things aren't accurate 100% of the time! I guess if they DON'T tell us we'll immediately schedule for the 3d/4d ultrasound and find out that way. We only have 2 weeks to get in and get it done if that is what we'll end up having to do!

Other than that things have been going well. I have been doing chiropractic which I recommend to any and all pregnant women! I started going because of migraines and being pregnant - you can't take anything for them! I was having them every single day. Now, maybe once a week, or once every two weeks or so! Chiropractic is also really helpful as your body expands and hormones take over, the care can keep you in line and as comfortable as can be expected. I know some people think it's a waste of money and I use to just go to make the migraines stop, but I think I'll continue throughout my pregnancy as it seems to help! :)

I've been feeling lonely and isolated from my friends lately but I think that is to be expected, after all their life hasn't changed, mine has. I can't hang out with them the way I use to - with a drink in hand and acting all silly. Now, I am tired by 9 and usually in bed by 9. Even Erik can't believe I go to bed so early now! It's been feeling lonely lately but I am doing my best to connect with the people I feel really care. Sometimes I wish they made more of an effort, but I guess that's just how life works. This life changing experience has put a lot into perspective for me and has made me really evaluate certain things in my life. I think that is a good thing as usually a lot of us don't take the time to really do that - to really figure out what is important to each of us as individuals. I know I am really wishing my friends Jami and Beth didn't live out of state - I can't believe how much I wish they lived here and how much I miss them. We talk every day but I feel a sense of sadness when we are done (we usually IM all day long). But I can't complain, I probably talk to them more than I do other people in my life that live by me - so I really shouldn't complain because we at least have that connection!

So wow. This is my first blog and I have just vomited all my thoughts out. I have had a lot on my mind lately and have been depressed so I guess this is a good outlet for now.

Looking forward to tomorrow and praying all goes well! I keep dreaming of having little girls and last night had a dream the ultrasound (u/s) tech told us it was a girl. I have only dreamt of a little boy one time. I have heard if you dream about a girl - it means you are having a boy. But then...as soon as you hear that...then you hear the opposite! LOL! Doing all the tests - the Chinese sex predictor - the necklace between the fingers - and whatever else there is - have all pointed to a boy! So we shall see tomorrow! I will take a new belly pic tomorrow too! :) By the way - the pic you see - that is 19 weeks preggers!