So I have never really blogged before so this is kinda crazy for me! Not sure what I am suppose to say, but I will just write whatever comes to mind I guess!
Tomorrow we go for our big ultrasound. I am scared to death! I have been guilty of reading things online which probably aren't the healthiest for me to read, but at the same time, I think I should be prepared for all possibilities - good and bad - since I have never been through this before! I have read about women who were 18 weeks pregnant and one that was 19 weeks, 2 days pregnant who went in for their big ultrasound, only to find that there was no heartbeat and the baby had died. I CANNOT imagine how horrible of a thing that must be to go through. I also can't help but worry if that may happen to me. I think I feel the bean moving but have even been questioning myself if that is what it is. I have obviously never been through this before so what if I am thinking that is what I am feeling and it turns out it is just gas?
I am praying for a positive ultrasound in all aspects. Kaiser informed us that they no longer tell you the sex of the baby - UNLESS you get a NICE technician. For the life of me I can't understand why on earth they wouldn't tell someone but they say it's because they can be wrong. Well of course they can be wrong - those things aren't accurate 100% of the time! I guess if they DON'T tell us we'll immediately schedule for the 3d/4d ultrasound and find out that way. We only have 2 weeks to get in and get it done if that is what we'll end up having to do!
Other than that things have been going well. I have been doing chiropractic which I recommend to any and all pregnant women! I started going because of migraines and being pregnant - you can't take anything for them! I was having them every single day. Now, maybe once a week, or once every two weeks or so! Chiropractic is also really helpful as your body expands and hormones take over, the care can keep you in line and as comfortable as can be expected. I know some people think it's a waste of money and I use to just go to make the migraines stop, but I think I'll continue throughout my pregnancy as it seems to help! :)
I've been feeling lonely and isolated from my friends lately but I think that is to be expected, after all their life hasn't changed, mine has. I can't hang out with them the way I use to - with a drink in hand and acting all silly. Now, I am tired by 9 and usually in bed by 9. Even Erik can't believe I go to bed so early now! It's been feeling lonely lately but I am doing my best to connect with the people I feel really care. Sometimes I wish they made more of an effort, but I guess that's just how life works. This life changing experience has put a lot into perspective for me and has made me really evaluate certain things in my life. I think that is a good thing as usually a lot of us don't take the time to really do that - to really figure out what is important to each of us as individuals. I know I am really wishing my friends Jami and Beth didn't live out of state - I can't believe how much I wish they lived here and how much I miss them. We talk every day but I feel a sense of sadness when we are done (we usually IM all day long). But I can't complain, I probably talk to them more than I do other people in my life that live by me - so I really shouldn't complain because we at least have that connection!
So wow. This is my first blog and I have just vomited all my thoughts out. I have had a lot on my mind lately and have been depressed so I guess this is a good outlet for now.
Looking forward to tomorrow and praying all goes well! I keep dreaming of having little girls and last night had a dream the ultrasound (u/s) tech told us it was a girl. I have only dreamt of a little boy one time. I have heard if you dream about a girl - it means you are having a boy. But then...as soon as you hear that...then you hear the opposite! LOL! Doing all the tests - the Chinese sex predictor - the necklace between the fingers - and whatever else there is - have all pointed to a boy! So we shall see tomorrow! I will take a new belly pic tomorrow too! :) By the way - the pic you see - that is 19 weeks preggers!
Tomorrow we go for our big ultrasound. I am scared to death! I have been guilty of reading things online which probably aren't the healthiest for me to read, but at the same time, I think I should be prepared for all possibilities - good and bad - since I have never been through this before! I have read about women who were 18 weeks pregnant and one that was 19 weeks, 2 days pregnant who went in for their big ultrasound, only to find that there was no heartbeat and the baby had died. I CANNOT imagine how horrible of a thing that must be to go through. I also can't help but worry if that may happen to me. I think I feel the bean moving but have even been questioning myself if that is what it is. I have obviously never been through this before so what if I am thinking that is what I am feeling and it turns out it is just gas?
I am praying for a positive ultrasound in all aspects. Kaiser informed us that they no longer tell you the sex of the baby - UNLESS you get a NICE technician. For the life of me I can't understand why on earth they wouldn't tell someone but they say it's because they can be wrong. Well of course they can be wrong - those things aren't accurate 100% of the time! I guess if they DON'T tell us we'll immediately schedule for the 3d/4d ultrasound and find out that way. We only have 2 weeks to get in and get it done if that is what we'll end up having to do!
Other than that things have been going well. I have been doing chiropractic which I recommend to any and all pregnant women! I started going because of migraines and being pregnant - you can't take anything for them! I was having them every single day. Now, maybe once a week, or once every two weeks or so! Chiropractic is also really helpful as your body expands and hormones take over, the care can keep you in line and as comfortable as can be expected. I know some people think it's a waste of money and I use to just go to make the migraines stop, but I think I'll continue throughout my pregnancy as it seems to help! :)
I've been feeling lonely and isolated from my friends lately but I think that is to be expected, after all their life hasn't changed, mine has. I can't hang out with them the way I use to - with a drink in hand and acting all silly. Now, I am tired by 9 and usually in bed by 9. Even Erik can't believe I go to bed so early now! It's been feeling lonely lately but I am doing my best to connect with the people I feel really care. Sometimes I wish they made more of an effort, but I guess that's just how life works. This life changing experience has put a lot into perspective for me and has made me really evaluate certain things in my life. I think that is a good thing as usually a lot of us don't take the time to really do that - to really figure out what is important to each of us as individuals. I know I am really wishing my friends Jami and Beth didn't live out of state - I can't believe how much I wish they lived here and how much I miss them. We talk every day but I feel a sense of sadness when we are done (we usually IM all day long). But I can't complain, I probably talk to them more than I do other people in my life that live by me - so I really shouldn't complain because we at least have that connection!
So wow. This is my first blog and I have just vomited all my thoughts out. I have had a lot on my mind lately and have been depressed so I guess this is a good outlet for now.
Looking forward to tomorrow and praying all goes well! I keep dreaming of having little girls and last night had a dream the ultrasound (u/s) tech told us it was a girl. I have only dreamt of a little boy one time. I have heard if you dream about a girl - it means you are having a boy. But then...as soon as you hear that...then you hear the opposite! LOL! Doing all the tests - the Chinese sex predictor - the necklace between the fingers - and whatever else there is - have all pointed to a boy! So we shall see tomorrow! I will take a new belly pic tomorrow too! :) By the way - the pic you see - that is 19 weeks preggers!
3 comments:
Awesome! I'm glad you have started a blog. I just subscribed!
Now I need to get back onto my blog!
Wow Denise, tomorrow is a big day!! I'm sure everything will be fine. What ever you do, don't let the ultrasound tech person NOT let you see the baby move. That happened to me. I asked to see the baby and she said "Hang on" and when I finally got to see, it was a snapshot. I was so mad! That was my only ultrasound that I was allowed since the pregnancy went good. I will keep you in my thoughts and am looking forward to hearing what the baby will be....if that person is a NICE person :O)
What's up with Kaiser saying they won't tell you gender unless you get lucky with a nice tech??
That totally stinks!! Our tech gave us the caveat that they're never completely certain, but I can't imagine why they wouldn't tell you this info. I'd be furious if we went in and the tech was a jerk.
I'm so glad the appointment went well ... and nice to see you blogging!
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